2) March 26th (D+3)


I’m surrounded by darkness I don’t see light anymore I’ve lost my light. I don’t find sense I don’t have a purpose, Of course I still have 2b, he’s the only reason I’m still standing. But I’ve lost sense. I can’t make sense of my life. I had a plan, I had dreams and now I have nothing.
We’ve worked so hard, we’ve been through so much, we’ve been patient, we’ve waited and endured so much just to have a shot at life together. You’ve sacrificed so much and for what? One week? Why would God reward us for all our good actions and patience and sacrifices with only one week?

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8) April 4th (D+12)

I spend a great amount of time on Instagram, waiting for your next post. I’ve read the hashtags of your recent posts (since I departed, basically) so many times that I now know them by heart. It took me a good 5 minutes staring at “hair in light” (yes I decided to name your pieces of art since you wouldn’t) to understand where it had been taken from. I like “future civil engineer” and “my mark forever”. I was submerged by mixed emotions with “Happy Island from a plane”. Happy you did something for 1b break, proud of you for moving on and enjoy life. Sad that you’re moving on without me. Jealous to experience what would have been MY life from outside. Caught between wishing you all the happiness in the world and knowing that without you in it, my life won’t know happiness. And then comes “the lighthouse”. Like for every other of your posts, I’ve read again and again the hashtags looking for a message, a sign toward me. Which is kind of stupid, knowing that you never put any ...
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4) March 31th (D+8)

Home bitter home! Home sad home! I’m back at the facility. I can see disappointment in the eyes of the people that saw me leaving and now see me coming back. But I’m numb to what they can think. I feel like I’m protected from their judgments by a shell. A shell made of my own guilt, despitefulness, sorrows, darkness. I carry that heavy shell all around.
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